Bored and depressed

I could be doing housework but instead I'm posting here and listening to Pandora. Inside I'm ranting and railing against fate and chance and stuff like that. I should be with the FWiB today but the exigencies of life mean we can't be together now. It sucks. I am feeling pretty depressed. I went out shopping in the hopes that would cheer me up. It was good to get out but it didn't help much. I thought maybe posting something here would help and it is a bit. Making me think of what I really mean to say and what I really feel. So even though this isn't my usual time to post I guess I'll leave this here and see what else I can write. I feel so... frustrated. Confined and helpless. I guess I need to embrace my powerlessness, but I'm fighting it. Maybe I should read an alanon book and that would help.

Feeling better

Feeling better than when I wrote that last post. Been listening to Pandora on the computer, and I dug out an old craft kit that I had from years ago and made it... a foam shape parrot. I put a magnet on the back and it's on the fridge. The FWiB called, still chaos in his situation. I also went shopping today and got a bunch of stuff, and ate lunch in Dunkin' Donuts. And I read in one of my alanon books, which was hard going but made me feel better.

So that was my day.

Gratitude List:

1. My program.

2. Pandora.

3. The FWiB.

4. Cheese.

5. Heard parrots while I was shopping.

6. Yogurt.