Got to bed last night at 3:00. At 4:00 someone was buzzing my doorbell. Woke me up, took me some time to get back to sleep.

I had the alarm set for 10:00 but I stayed in bed til 11:00. Then I had to rush to get ready because John and Denise were picking up Middle Brother at 11:00 and figured about an hour to get to me. So I rushed breakfast and coffee, and my shower, and got ready with abut 15 minutes to spare before they got here.

Middle Brother looks very good. He was happy to see me. We went to the diner for lunch before going to see Oldest Brother. Middle Brother had his usual. I had a breakfast sandwich.

When we got to the nursing home, Oldest Brother was sitting up in a chair. They said they are trying to get him up for four hours every other day.

We visited for about an hour and a half, and he was pretty good. Started to get drowsy toward the end so we left.

John and Denise brought me home and then took Middle Brother back. I did some fiddling around with a couple of old photos that I had told them about. Then I just puttered online, and also played solitaire on my phone, until 7:00 when I finally got to Skype the FWiB.

We talked til 8:00 when I had my Al-anon meeting. It was very small, and again M didn't come. I hope she's OK, I should call and check.

After the meeting I had some food, and then went to the bedroom and played solitaire until pet feeding time.

And now I'm going to finish up and go to bed.

Gratitude List:

1. The FWiB.

2. John and Denise.

3. Heard from Cousin Cliff.

4. Oldest Brother seems OK.

5. Middle Brother got to see Oldest Brother.

6. Bed soon.

I got up at 11-ish today, breakfasted and coffeed, showered and dressed. Cousin Nancy got held up by bad traffic, instead of getting here at 1:00, she was here at a little past 3:00. I played Bookworm while I was waiting, which killed the time admirably.

We went to visit Oldest Brother, and he was pleased to see us. We stayed for several hours, then went to the diner where we met up with mashfanficchick, and John and Denise. We had food, and talked for a long time.

Then Nancy went back home, and since John and Denise weren't going to see oldest Brother, I went back with mashfanficchick to zer place to hang with zer and Mandy, who is in for a week's vacation. I called Middle Brother while I was there, he went to Sunkin Meadow for a walk on the boardwalk on Friday.

We hung out for a few hours, ordered food, I got dessert, chocolate cheesecake. Then eventually I Ubered home.

Gratitude List:

1. The FWiB, didn't get to Skype though.

2. Family.

3. Friends.

4. Oldest Brother seems to enjoy the visits.

5. Middle brother well.

6. Bed soon.

I woke up at 10:00 with the alarm but didn't manage to get out of bed til 12:00. Then I breakfasted, coffeed, showered, and dressed. Then I called Middle Brother's group home and told them that John and Denise were picking him up on Tuesday to take him to see Oldest Brother. And then I went to the nursing home to see Oldest Brother.

I met John and Denise there. It was wonderful to see them and we had a lovely visit. Even better, John Ivon called John while they were there, and got to talk to Oldest Brother, this is especially important as John Ivon is himself in ICU in Montana. He told John he would call if he felt up to it and apparently he did.

So I stayed a while longer after John and Denise left. He was kind of worn out by then so I didn't stay long.

I went home and called the Kid and discussed tomorrow with her. She and her boyfriend will be joining us around 1-ish tomorrow but have to leave because they have movie tickets for 5.

I puttered around til 5:15 when I went into the Bronx for my meeting. I had pizza first, as usual. It was the first Friday meeting I'd made for two weeks, so it was nice to be back.

I called Middle Brother and told him about Tuesday. He was happy about that/

I got a Facebook message from Eva Rice, she and her father Jonathan are coming in on Wednesday, which is when I have my mammogram, but unlike the pcp, which I had on Tuesday and rescheduled, the mammogram is just in Flushing, and shouldn't be a problem.

After my meeting I got a ride to the bus from K. Then when I got home I Skyped the FWiB, or rather, used teams.

Then I fed the pets, and had mashfanficchick call me to discuss tomorrow. Chances are good ze will be joining us.

Gratitude List:

1. The FWiB.

2. Oldest Brother got to talk to John Ivon.

3. John and Denise.

4. My meetings and the people there.

5. My family in general.

6. Middle Brother getting to see Oldest Brother.

And he wasn't doing well. I slept until after 12:00, then got up and had breakfast and coffee, and showered and dressed, and went over to the nursing home.

He was very sleepy and not very responsive. I don't think that there is going to be a lot of time to wait for the end. I'm not sure how I should feel about that.

I Facebook messaged Cousin Cliff to ask if he thought he would be able to come and do the funeral service. No answer so far.

I put in a Shipt order, and waited for it, then after it arrived I put it away and went and lay down in the bedroom and played solitaire.

At 7:00 I Skyped the FWiB, but actually for the first time I didn't use Skype, I used Teams. It worked very well.

We talked until 8:00 when I went to my D&D game. We fought skums again.

Then I fed the pets and made dinner. I ate, and then called mashfanficchick. Ze is probably coming over tomorrow to help me with the Christmas tree.

And then I started here. Bed now.

Gratitude List:

1. The FWiB.

2. My D&D group.

3. Oldest Brother is comfortable.

4. Shipt.

5. Jelly beans.

6. Bed soon.

Got up latish, got phone calls from the hospice people, Oldest Brother officially started hospice today and I had some decisions to make. I hope I chose well.

Showered and dressed, and we went out to run errands. Started by lunch at an Indian restaurant, got the lamb curry lunch special and a mango lassi.

Then we went to Trader Joes and did major shopping. Then we took the bus to Stop and Shop and did more major shopping.

mashfanficchick asked me to stay another night so we can start early tomorrow, and get the Very Last Boxes out of the house and to the storage unit with the driving help of zer friend Liz G. And I agreed, so I'm staying tonight.

Got back to zer place from Stop and Shop, stopping at Starbucks on the way, and heard from RK that he was available to help tonight getting stuff from the house that isn't going into the storage unit. We took his car over, and got the stuff back here. One big box broke open on it's way in, but RK picked it up.

Then we went out to California Pizza Kitchen and got take out. I got the Wild Mushroom pizza. WE went to RK's place, and after we ate we played a game of Dominion. RK won, I lost rather badly, but I am beginning to understand how the game works.

Then he drove us back here, and soon it will be bed time.

Gratitude List:

1. The FWiB, even though we didn't get to Skype.

2. Oldest Brother in hospice care.

3. Dried apple slices.

4. The Kid has a job interview.

5. RK.

6. Friends.

Got up and went to my Al-anon meeting by bus after having breakfast and coffee, and showering. The meeting was smaller than usual but good. I chaired again.

Got a ride to the diner and had a bagel with cream cheese and lox, and iced coffee. Got a ride home from L, very nice.

Got here in time to see the last two seconds of the credits of the Starsky and Hutch episode. Oh well. Had fun at the chat, though. I put in a Shipt order while we were chatting,

We chatted til about 5:30. Then I killed time puttering on the computer, until 7:00 when I Skyped the FWiB. We talked til 8:30.

mashfanficchick texted right when we got off and we discussed tomorrow. I'm going to go see Oldest Brother, then decide if I'm going over to zer or not.

After that I got something for dinner, and went into the bedroom to play solitaire.

Did that til pet feeding time, then I fed the pets and here I am.

Gratitude List:

1. The FWiB.

2. My meetings and the people there.

3. Beautiful weather.

4. The Starsky and Hutch fandom.

5. Relaxing day.

6. Shipt.

But I got up at 10:00 anyway and ate breakfast and had coffee and showered and dressed, and then went to see Oldest Brother. It was a good vist. I stayed a little more than a half hour.

AS I was leaving the nursing home I got a call from the hospice person. There may be a glitch, the hospice only covers the cost of the PEG feeding if it's related to the diagnosis. They are reviewing his medical stuff and will let me know.

After that I went to mashfanficchick's place and called the Kid about it. She says not to worry about it until it's actually denied.

mashfanficchick and I went out to dinner at Bareburger. We walked there and took the bus back. Dinner was delicious.

When we got here I Skyped the FWiB on my phone and we talked til 8:00 when we watched 911 followed by Dr. Odyssey. 911 was... traumatic. No spoilers though.

I called Middle Brother. He is doing well, went out to a game arcade on Monday.

After that we watched a couple of episodes of Will Trent.

Cousin Sue Facebook messaged me. She and Danny are coming tomorrow to see Oldest Brother, and we will have dinner with them. I texted the Kid, and when she didn't respond I called, to let her know. She is busy tomorrow but I hope that she and her boyfriend will have tome to join us.

That's about all. Getting ready for bed now. Obviously I'm saying over again.

Gratitude List:

1. The FWiB.

2. Good TV, even when it's sad.

3. Oldest Brother is doing OK.

4. Also got a text from Eva R asking how we were doing.

5. Yummy dinner.

6. Middle Brother is doing OK.

I got phone calls in the morning, and to make a long story short, I have hopefully arranged for Oldest Brother to be in hospice care at the nursing home. I got the notice that he was moving today, and I got the call that he had been moved later in the day.

I texted Linda, she reaffirmed that they are coming tomorrow but didn't know when.

I got up and had breakfast and coffee, and showered and dressed, and then I got Middle Brother's Easter basket ready. I packed it in a box, addressed it, and headed to the post office.

I missed the bus stop. And it was the 44, so although I got off at the next stop it was farther than I wanted to walk back, so I took another 44 bus back to my stop. Wasted of money. But I got to the poist office, and sent my package, which should arrive Thursday.

Then I took the bus into Flushing and went to Duane Reade to pick up prescriptions. They couldn't find them, and I had to wait while they refilled them. Annoying.

Then I went home, and lay down for awhile and fiddled on my phone. Eventually I got up, and ate something, and puttered on the laptop until 7:00 when I Skyped the FWiB.

We talked for an hour, until my Al-anon meeting at 8:00. The meeting was good.

Then I had dinner, and went and lay down again. I called mashfanficchick to see how ze was doing. They are done clearing out the house except for the garage and part of the basement.

We talked for about a half hour, and then I played solitaire until pet feeding time. I fed the pets, and here I am.

Gratitude List:

1. The FWiB.

2. The Easter basket is mailed.

3. Got my scrips.

4. My meetings and the people there.

5. Linda and Steve coming tomorrow.

6. John and denise next week.

Woke up a bit after 10:00, Cousin Laurie called as arranged around 11:00. We had a nice talk, about an hour actually. After we were done I called Middle Brother's group home and told them the situation. They said they would tell Middle Brother, and I said that was good.

Then mashfanficchick got up and we went to have breakfast at Dunkin' Donuts. I got the $6 meal deal again.

Then we went to the house and worked. Got a few more boxes of things packed, and are almost done now.

At 4:30 we went back to zer apartment, and I Ubered to the hospital to see Oldest Brother while ze went to zer father's to go to a seder.

Oldest Brother was pretty good, actually. More verbal than he has been, and he even managed to make a joke. When I told him that it was Passover and mashfanficchick was at a seder, he clearly and distinctly said "Oy vey". Thus showing that he understood what I said, and was capable of responding with humor.

I stayed about an hour and a little more, than took the bus home. Everything was OK when I got here.

I Skyped the FWiB, and at 8:30 I called Middle Brother and talked to him. He's taking it pretty well. Then I finished talking to the FWiB, and had dinner.

Tomorrow is the final push in finishing off the house. The movers are coming back in the afternoon so we have the morning to finish things up. I will get up early and go over.

Gratitude List:

1. The FWiB.

2. Oldest Brother seemed good.

3. Middle Brother OK.

4. The house almost done.

5. Family.

6. Bed soon.

Started by getting up at 10:00, expecting to hear from my therapist. She did call, a bit before 11 and I told her everything that was going on.

Then I had coffee, and showered, and mashfanficchick ordered food to be delivered to zer mother's house, and we left for there. It was raining a little.

Cousin Linda had texted me yesterday asking me to call her so I did, and when we eventually got to talk, she wants to come visit Oldest Brother, along with Cousin Steve. I said I would ask Oldest Brother if that was something he would like. She also filled me in on the family doings. Rick and Martha are expecting another baby, and Erika is getting married.

I also called middle Brother's group home twice, and there was no answer either time. Very odd, i hope the phone isn't out of order, which has happened before.

Anyway, after the food was delivered and we ate, we worked in the house. RK brought over some packing stuff mashfanficchick ordered from U-Haul. He stayed for awhile.

We left at 5:00 because I was supposed to meet the Kid and her boyfriend at the hospital at 6:00. I got there a little after 6"00 and they were still on the way.

Oldest Brother has been moved to the hospice unit. It is very peaceful, and the room is very nice, with a couch and a chair. He was about the same as he's been. The Kid and her boyfriend arrived somewhat after 7:00, and we had a lovely visit, really. The visiting hours seem to be different, they didn't make the announcement that they were over til 9:00. We stayed til the end, and sang Happy Birthday. He seemed to enjoy our visit.

They Ubered home, I took the bus. I got here in time to Skype the FWiB. Then I fed the pets and made dinner, and then called Linda back.

And now mashfanficchick is calling about plans for tomorrow.

Anyway, one other sad thing, my friend Lynn S, the one Chris and I went to visit last fall, died last night from the pancreatic cancer. The same thing Oldest Brother has. I emailed Chris to let him know. I knew Lynn wasn't doing well but I didn't think it would be this fast.

Gratitude List:

1. The FWiB.

2. Linda and the rest of the family.

3. Smoked salmon crepe for lunch.

4. Oldest Brother seemed to enjoy himself.

5. mashfanficchick

6. The Kid.