Day 24: Anxiety
Apr. 8th, 2020 10:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
silver_chipmunkI am suffering anxiety at the moment. My boss says that management doesn't know how long it can sustain paying us without layoffs. I THINK since we're union any layoffs would have to be by seniority, which God knows should make me safe. But who knows? She darkly reminds us we're on Other Paid Leave, not AL and we have to work. And the YA meeting was talking all about virtual programming, which I have no idea what I can do. I'm working every day, doing trainings and meetings, but I only have the vaguest idea about any kind of virtual programming ideas. I will take the social media training so I can be allowed to be an editor on the library facebook page, and I might be able to do some virtual programs there.
Not to mention anxiety over Oldest Brother, I have spoken to him three times today, he's maybe sounding a little better since yesterday, maybe. But his landlord called him and wanted him go back to the hospital and stay there, basically wants him out of the house. At least he can't be evicted legally, all evictions have been frozen in New York for 90 days.
I called Middle Brother but the guy who answered the phone said he thought he was asleep so I said not to bother him, I'll call tomorrow. At least it sounds like he's ok.
I did a training today for work, on gmail. It was interesting but mostly not very useful. I did get some tips though.
Skyped the FWiB. They had a tornado watch last night and he lost his wifi for awhile.
Bernie Sanders dropped out of the Presidential race. The Kid is very unhappy. I talked to her a bit today.
I haven't been able to get my Shipt order through yet. Tonight I called in dinner using seamless. It was delicious, a hamburger with bacon, ham, cheese and onions. Lovely. But I can't keep doing that.
I watched the Thurber reading but the seamless order arrived (late) during it and I missed part.
Read a little, listened to music and dozed with Sybil on me, that helped my anxiety a little.
Gratitude List:
1. The FWiB.
2. Oldest Brother is holding his own.
3. Trainings.
4. The Kid.
5. People from my meetings. Got some texts today.
6. Seamless.
Not to mention anxiety over Oldest Brother, I have spoken to him three times today, he's maybe sounding a little better since yesterday, maybe. But his landlord called him and wanted him go back to the hospital and stay there, basically wants him out of the house. At least he can't be evicted legally, all evictions have been frozen in New York for 90 days.
I called Middle Brother but the guy who answered the phone said he thought he was asleep so I said not to bother him, I'll call tomorrow. At least it sounds like he's ok.
I did a training today for work, on gmail. It was interesting but mostly not very useful. I did get some tips though.
Skyped the FWiB. They had a tornado watch last night and he lost his wifi for awhile.
Bernie Sanders dropped out of the Presidential race. The Kid is very unhappy. I talked to her a bit today.
I haven't been able to get my Shipt order through yet. Tonight I called in dinner using seamless. It was delicious, a hamburger with bacon, ham, cheese and onions. Lovely. But I can't keep doing that.
I watched the Thurber reading but the seamless order arrived (late) during it and I missed part.
Read a little, listened to music and dozed with Sybil on me, that helped my anxiety a little.
Gratitude List:
1. The FWiB.
2. Oldest Brother is holding his own.
3. Trainings.
4. The Kid.
5. People from my meetings. Got some texts today.
6. Seamless.
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Date: 2020-04-09 11:07 am (UTC)I hope your job holds out through everything and your family keeps doing well!
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Date: 2020-04-10 02:38 am (UTC)